Currently I am a third of my way through Yoga Teacher Training. Yup, I said it, have now come clean, and regardless of the outcome of all this – I have found my happy place. Well, I think I have at least, because pessimists such as myself are terrified of feeling good, secure and certain about much at all.
It can be quite remarkable to have been searching for much of your adult life for something that truly felt good and the right thing for you to do, (and that you could turn into an income – however modest) to find you’ve actually been participating in it for over 30 years.
I have known for a lot of years that helping people navigate their way through ‘stuff’ is something I have always wanted to do. Psychology studies, Lifeline Counselling, volunteering, all these were leading towards … Yoga teaching? Possibly a long bow to draw but one that for me now makes complete sense. When I was undertaking my Lifeline training over 20 years ago – someone asked me “but why would you want to do that?”. My answer was then and still is, “Because everyone deserves to have someone really listen to them”. Simple. This one thing had been missing from my life for a long, long time, and sometimes the path to health and wellness begins with someone just listening to you – not fixing – just listening. And caring. My mat and my practice gave me the confidence to know that I’m more resilient than I think I am … and I can do this thing called Yoga, even if I’m not as ‘good’ at it as some. Thinking of the earlier covers of Yoga Journal here.
It was in my 20’s that I started going to Yoga classes. They were part of my local high school’s night classes program. Over the years I studied Italian language, Italian Cooking, Art, Creative Writing etc., etc. And the one thing I continued when I moved to Oz? Yoga. Why? Because for me it works. I have always felt better physically and mentally when I step off the mat, then when I step on it – and the practice in between those two steps is medicine. I also started looking into the why’s and wherefores of the whole Yoga experience – not just the asana’s which are a small part of Yoga – but the holistic, spiritual, experiential side of Yoga. But I never, ever believed I could be in a position where I might be able to share some of that with other people.
And I am grateful. So grateful to have the opportunity to learn with people who live and breathe Yoga. I am very aware how little I know about it. I am also very aware this is going to be a lifelong learning opportunity and one too that I will never truly master (hopefully I have a long life – I’m getting up there in the numbers now). But if I become adept enough to share what I do learn, and more importantly through that encourage others to start their own journey into the wholeness of Yoga – then I’m good.